Happy summer I guess

I'm kinda pissed. My layoff was supposed to end at the start of next month. But nooooo, they forced me to start my summer vacation then so I will have my summer vacation in May. In Finland May is basically still winter. Though rarely it's the warmest month of the year, who knows, but I reaaaallly don't want to have the vacation now. Bunch of shit.

I'm just going to wear all my summery things I have been saving for warmer weather, no matter what's the temperature or what's coming down from the sky. I'll freeze my ass off, I don't care. Today was warm though, I like it. This was my outfit for a pizza run, cause what else there is to do than make yourself slightly less ugly.

Shirt - DIY from old band shirt
Belts - Flea markets
Skirt - H&M
Choker - DIY
Necklace - Ebay
Boots - Hard Leather stuff, Ebay

Well no matter, I have been still enjoying home time. I even kinda feel it's going too fast!

On thing I have been excited about is converting old band shirts into other kinda clothing. For example this Slayer T-shirt that I made in to a top, I also made corseting for the back so I can make it very form fitting if I want. I also have other projects I might show you later. For example I have this big XL Christian Death shirt I am not sure what to make of it. It might make a cute mini dress.

This outfit really brought back memories, slayer shirt, bunch of belts, bunch of leather bracelets and combat boots, it's like I'm 16 again.

I also did something different for my makeup today. Well it's not that much different I just added false lashes, which usually for me is too pain in the butt to do. But I really like the look, might start using them more. Only thing better than taking your bra off at the end of the day is taking off your false lashes ooohh maaan.

I have been thinking about like doing a little different post next maybe. Someone requested shoe collection.. I would have to do a youtube video and I don't really knooow if that really is the kinda thing I want to do? Maybe like a wardrobe staples or signature pieces or something like that. Well I do have TIME.

Whatever I'll go eat the rest of that pizza.

Home alone

Oops, I missed a month. No matter. Also I am sorry if sometimes it takes me a while to publish your comments. I greatly appreciate every comment and I want to be able to see every single one and answer them, that's why I have the monitoring on.

Also what on earth has happened to the world meanwhile? I'm sure you all are already so full of it so I won't get to it too much. My layoff started like a week ago, and immediately I got sick. Just a cough and a sore throat. Probably not the thing that's been going around, but annoying still. I have been feeling better today, so I decided to take some new pics and get back on track.

The current information is that we would get back to work in in a little more than 3 weeks. But you just never know with all this going on. They might just put us all on summer vacation for another 4 weeks after this layoff  or give us more layoff. Who knows.

Top - Originally a dress by Mercy, diy'ed in to a top
Top skirt - Lindex, Second hand
Bottom skirt - Ebay
Boots - Pennangalan, second hand
Tights - DIY
Collar - Killstar
Belts - Second hand

So far I am absolutely loving the quarantine time. I am sure that's not what everyone is feeling.. But

it's just amazing to be able to relax at home, not feeling guilty about being home all the time because you just literally have nowhere else to go! You aren't missing out on anything. 

My boyfriend is also away from home some days more so I am just completely alone with our cats and I am just loving it. I miss him sure, but it's just a nice change of pace.

Mostly with my free time, I have been playing Animal Crossing on my Switch, done some sewing and watching netflix. I have just been trying to heal my throat and rest as much as I can. I was also supposed to start streaming games on Twitch but our internet connection at the moment wont allow it. We need to get an external internet antenna and install it and blahblah, we'll see if I can get it going in a few weeks! I'll let you know on Instagram and twitter and facebook when I'm streaming if you want to watch!

GaH, I have not been writing much in english in such a long time and it feels a bit wobbly and inconsistent. I need to do it more.

I did do a diy project a while ago! I bought this bag from Zalando a while back in full intent to diy it. So I was searching through my craft box and I found some old crappy harnesses I bought from ebay forever ago and never used since there were things wrong with it. So I dug up my sewing machine and cut up the harness and this is what I came up with! I have been searching for a bag like this for a good while now. The studs, the straps, the faux leather, the o-rings.. I just wanted these things in bag form and here it is!

What do you think?

Anyways I'll update a few time this month, so see you soon!

Have you found things to do at home or are you already freaking out? 

Last minute

I made a secret promise to myself to at least post one blog post every month. WELL, now it's 29th of February, 8pm, it still counts right?

I forgot if I already talked about this, but anyway. I have not been feeling too good about myself since I gained some weight during the Christmas times. Not like a whole lot, but enough for me to feel crummy in every tight clothing I try on. So some weeks ago I started a light diet and added some exercise. I am already half way to the minimum amount I want to shake off, but a kilo or two more couldn't hurt. 

    

Top - Second hand
Choker - Killstar
Skirt - Lindex
Jacket - Asos
Necklace - Fleamarket
Shoes - Demonia, second hand
Belts - All second hand
Stockings, tights, undershirt - Diy'ed ebay shit
Bracelets - Ebay

My work schedules changed in the beginning of the year.  Even thought it's neat to have every weekend off, I just hate it. I hate that it's 5 days of work without a day off. We used to have a max of 4 days in a row. I also loved having days off in the middle of the week, you could do your shopping and stuff when no one else was around. I hate going to the store in the weekends or after work hours.

  

It already feels like spring! Sure there are nights when it's a bit cold but the days are longer and there is no snow anywhere!

This sitting picture got a bit too much overexposure but I still liked it enough to try to save is as best I could.

I got my financial situation in a bit of a wobble ever since my layoff, but it's slowly getting back on track! But because of this I had to miss some events I really wanted to attend and it really sucks. As much as I love staying home all the time, there's a limit to it. Would love to just go all out dancing! 

Some time ago I acquired a Nintendo Switch! Mainly because the Animal Crossing New Horizons is coming out 20th of March and I just could not miss out on it! I have been obsessed with Animal Crossing ever since I got Wild World for Nintendo DS 2006. From there on I have bought every game, even the Wii U one is sitting on my shelf even though I never had Wii U. 

Meanwhile I have been playing Pokemon Shield. I also got Ring Fit adventure since it looked like fun and anything to help me exercise is more than welcome! 

New year new shit

My 4 week winter vacation is over after this week. Didn't do much of the things I wanted, but at least I feel well rested for now. 

I'm a herp derp who thinks they can change just like that, when the year tuned 2020 I felt like I wanted to start getting back to blogging and Instagram and all that nonsense, it's going well so far.... Right...? Also another thing related to that. I wanted to not be so hard on myself. I used to take a bunch of pictures and then just do anything with them because they were not 100% perfect. Or I would take 100 pictures and still not be happy and take 50 more, it's insane. I can't keep that up every day.

These pictures aren't perfect on my standards, but what the hell, here you go.

Top - Halpa Halli
Choker - Killstar
Waist belt - ASOS
Skirt - Second hand
Shoes - Demonia Swing 815
Thighs and stockings - DIY

It has been an odd winter, there isn't snow anywhere.

I love the yard on our current house. I'm not sure how much I have talked about it, but we moved to a big-ish house, we are renting for now but might or might not buy it at some point. I just adore life in a house compared to an apartment. You can be as loud as you want, you can shower in the middle of the night, you can keep your blinds open since our back yard is pretty sheltered. You can jump around your own private backyard taking outfit pictures without any worries. It's lovely.

Did you make any resolutions for 2020?

The "almost done dressing room"

Happy 2020!

Here is the progress of the dressing room. I was planning on making a post, when it was completely finished. It still needs a rug, some lights, some jewelry hangers to be hung up... etc. But at the moment I don't know when it will be finished, if ever. I hope you enjoy these pictures anyway!  

Second hand dresser that I painted black.

This spider thingy was originally a candle holder by partylite. I got it from a flea market and the glass holders were missing, so I made my boyfriend cut out the holder rings so I could use it for my earrings.

Also a sechond hand make-up table. I painted it black and re-upholstered the bench. I still probably need to switch out the mirror at some point since it has some flaws. 

At the moment I am laid off from work a couple of more weeks. I had so much plans to get back to blogging and Instagram and maybe even twitch at this time. But the first day I have the house to myself I have a horrible migraine and I just got news that made me depressed as hell and I don't know what to do with myself. Or what to even think. I'll try again tomorrow.

Why does life always have to hit you down.

Planning a dressing room!

Normally this time of the year in my blog I would be all over Samhain. BUT we moved a couple of days ago and it's still somewhat in progress. At the moment I am busy planning my dressing room! In this house we have 3 bedrooms and of course I claimed the biggest one to serve as a room for my clothing, shoes, accessories etc. The size is about 287x460cm

The 2 of the rooms used to be bedrooms for kids and they had some drawings on the wall. We painted over those with white paint so it is nice and clear surface to start planning on. I also went ahead and bought some mirrors from Jysk. The other one is the biggest mirror I could find 78x180cm. It's white but we are going to paint the borders black, same story with the ground standing dressing mirror.

Ikea has these Pax closet frames that you can accessories how ever you want, so I am planning on getting 2 pairs of those. And 8 bars to add to them as well as 2 to 4 selves. Between these closets I am planning to install an additional pair of bars for clothes! You could buy doors for these cabinets but I really want it all out where I can see everything, so no doors!

I'm also planning to get 2 billy bookcases in the opposite side of the room. These will serve as room for my shoes and bags. Of course there is also room for them on top of the cabinets and if it's still not enough I'll add some wall selves

I would also love love looove if I could find a good makeup table. I have always dreamed of owning one! This one I pictured here is just one option but I would love to find a gorgeous second hand one as well!

The dresser on the left is also a maybe. It would be just as awesome to find a second hand one.

The stool thing in the middle of the room would be awesome for putting on shoes as well as serve as a... stool to have easier access to the top of the cabinets. Still need to think is this the right one for me.

But that's all just the big furniture. I'm also planning hooks on walls for belts and jewelry, different assortment of lights, a carpet etc. I need to get all the big furniture in place first however so it makes it easier to visualize the smaller things. I'll make more posts about the progress of my dressing room as the project advances.

Any thoughts? Suggestions? All is welcome!

I don't wanna go back

Oh wow, so here I am again.

I don't know where to start, but then again I don't know what to write about.

Why was I away? I dunno. I felt lazy. I felt depressed (still do). I felt like I look like crap and my self-esteem was down in the gutters. The apartment we live in currently is super cramped. If I want to dress up to go out, I pretty much have to tear down all of my wardrobes to find that one top, and some of the time it didn't feel like it was worth it. Felt like doing posts without any interesting pictures is just not good enough. I felt like my life sucks and there's nothing to tell. Except to complain about work. But then again, these are all just excuses.

My summer vacation is almost over. Next week I need to head back to the work and it sucks so much as well as makes me anguished. I have been planning on quitting my job soonish. We need to move first and handle all the expenses that brings us before I can do that though, as well as some other small payments still hanging. My work is so very mind numbing and pointless that I just can't bear it anymore. I might look for other work slowly after that, but first I want to try my luck with some self employment since it's what I have always wanted to do. I don't want to get in to what I will be doing then just yet since I don't have all the details yet figured out.

Body - New Yorker
Skirt - Shop Melanoir
Boots - Demonia Morpheus
Belt - Second hand
Collar - Killstar

Recently I have invested in some photograph lightning for a other project, as well as possibly starting to stream on twitch. But I figured I could also use them as lights to photograph outfits and stuff inside the house, no matter the time of day or weather. But I do need to learn and test them a bit more since I am not used to using lights, but I will figure it out.

I am really looking forward on our move, even though nothing is certain just yet. But in the new house I would have room to have my own dressing room and office as well as a big yard and hardly any neighbors! Also a lot of space to fix up for my Volkswagen bus!

At the moment my bus restoration is coming along pretty good, I'm pretty sure we will get most the technical stuff done by the end of the year. I'll post some progress pictures at some point, especially when I get to start designing the camping interior! So hopefully next summer I would be able to support myself and use all of the summer to camp around Finland, where ever we want! That's the dream anyway.

Lately I have been also getting back to digital drawing. I have been working on a gift I owe to a friend of mine, which is terribly late, like always. I'm sorry!

This summer I have also been addicted to flea markets, since I have had time to go a bit further than just to the local ONE. It's always as exciting to find unique or vintage stuff that you have never seen before. It really makes me wish I'd still live in Pori, there were so many good flea markets a few years back.  

But yeah, I'll try to keep you updated as much as possible as my life (hopefully) changes drastically. Maybe some process photos and plans when I start setting up and building my dressing room and office space! I really hope everything goes as planned for once! So see you soon!