Tuesday, 30 March 2021


 I found this very cool flowy top second hand from ebay. I love everything about it, but for some reason I have found it to be a hard garment to style. But anyways here it is on me.

Life seems to stand still a lot. Not much happens. I have some upcoming collabs coming up soon and I am fairly excited about those! But I'm going to keep those a secret for now! Also I am planning to stream some games today if my internet allows me to. Starting about 11-12pm eest summer time.

Leather top - Second hand
Satin Top - Second hand
Belt - Etsy
Leggings - Only
Shoes - Demonia
Choker - Killstar

Lately out of stream I have been playing Valheim and Witcher 3. Valheim really was so much better than I excepted, especially when playing with a friend! Best multiplayer game I have played in a while. 
Witcher 3 I have completed on ps4 a while back, but I got it for my pc as well. I just wanted to do more of the side quests and see the things I missed. It's a great game all around so I don't mind starting all over.

Does anyone else have a standstill on life? Or is it just me.

Monday, 22 March 2021

March outfit

I don't have much to say for today. Just dumping these pictures for you to look at!

Bolero - Queen of Darkness
Top - Boohoo 
Waist belt - Poizen Industries
Top skirt - Lip Service
Bottom Skirt - Second hand
Legwarmers - Etsy, Raintower
Shoes - Demonia
Scarf - Second Hand

See ya soooon!

Saturday, 6 March 2021


We have had a few very warm days over here, and I was already full on waiting for spring to come. But now it's snowing again. Fuk dat.

The new kittens are adjusting well. Willy is still a bit skittish and still mostly sleeps in the safe place we made for them, but Tikru already loves to follow you around and observe all the things you do. But they still don't want people touching them. They just need some time.

Belt - Disturbia
Skirt - Shein
Top - Shein
Tulle skirt - Etsy
Collar - Some sex shop
Jacket - AliExpress
Shoes - Demonia

I don't know why I have been drawn to full leather looks lately. Well fake leather looks. Only thing that is real leather in this look is the collar.

I just might have splurged on a killstar onesie... I have never used or owned a onesie but I felt like it would be prefect to just throw on and do some streaming if I'm feeling a little lazy. I haven't received it yet, but I'm waiting on pins and needles!  

See you soon!

Monday, 22 February 2021


It's been a while.
Lots of things happened and I just felt too overwhelmed for a while to post anything.  

Shrug - AliExpress
Top - SheIn
Shoes - Pleaser
Hat - Cybershop

I really want to stream soon, maybe today maybe tomorrow, but I don't want to jinx it. I have some games I have been saving to play in stream for the first time so there's that.

Early fall our dear sweet cat Luna passed away. I was already depressed but it really lead me to find a whole new rock bottom. I felt like nothing would ever get me out of bed ever again. 

At the start of the year we started to wonder if we should look at some rescue cats. I wanted my cat Nipsu to have someone to play with. It kinda felt a bit soon, but I was still browsing some rescue cat pages every once in a while. 

Few weeks ago I laid my eyes on Tikru on Vakka-Suomen animal protection page. She was a 9-month old little playful little tiger. We called them up and they also offered us Willy, he was Tikrus brother, same age. I didn't want to separate them so we just took them both.

The kittens were born in the wild and had never been handled by humans so of course they are still very scared of us. But they like playing with us and Nipsu, and we even managed to pet Tikru a few times. I'm hopeful Nipsu will show them how nice is it to be pet and held so maybe one day!

Willy or Vili for short


Sunday, 4 October 2020

Fall Leaves Appreciation

 Today me and my boyfriend visited the Uusikaupunki cemetery for the first time ever. There is a small section of old graves and I wanted to see them! There were few interesting gravestones, one of which towered like 4 meters in the air, as well as one that was eaten by a tree. There was also a maple that was struck by lightning. All these wonders and I took pictures of me and the leaves. I was in too much awe I guess. 

 I have had this Punk Rave dress for ages but I have not worn it much, but today it felt like it really fit my Fall mood. Though it feels like the sleeves of this dress are an annoying length on me, but the hood is a killer!

I am pretty excited about the weather getting colder since I can start doing many layers to my outfits again! Warm and comfy layers! Though I hope it doesn't get too cold. That's not good either.

Dress - Punk Rave
Belt - Killstar
Shoes - Flea Market

I got myself a jump rope! I have not jumped rope since like 3-4th grade, but I heard it's great exercise and I wanted to add it to my routine next to yoga and Ringfit. I'm glad I still can jump rope after all these years! 
I really want to shake off some excess kilos that haunt me. I did get rid of some previously, but I kinda fell back when depression hit.

I'm pretty sad we don't have a big maple tree in our yard. We have couple of small ones and a medium one behind our trashcan thing. But nothing really beats the quantity of leaves that fall from a grand maple.

I hope you are having a great Fall!

I have gotten my sleeping schedule back on track for streaming as well! So hopefully I am able to do some steams next week and not fall asleep after one hour. 
See you soon! 

Thursday, 24 September 2020

Start of Fall

I have a constant sleepy feeling, I think I need to start exercising every now and then to not feel like a big baked potato.
But anyways. I got 2 months free trial on skillshare. Initially I wanted freshen up my oil painting knowledge so I could make the best painting of my cat I could. But that kind of got jammed since I noticed I don't have a big enough canvas for it. So before I can proceed with that I need to find a proper sized canvas.

Life seems slow. 

It makes me giddy seeing the leaves changing and Halloween stuff popping up in stores... I really don't have any money at the moment to spend on such things, but just seeing them makes me dive in to the Fall feels.

Seriously I can't even remember when was the last time I styled my hair this way.. Must be like 5 years ago. I really wanna test all sorts of different styles to see which ones work best for me.

I constantly wanna stream but I just feel so tiered that sleeping seems more appealing right now. Need to get my shit together. Makes me sad that sleepiness and general exhaustion keep me away form my art projects and other stuff I love doing. Kinda funny how most of my blogposts recently seem to be pictures of me + me complaining how sleepy or depressed I am. Oh gosh.
I hope Fall, Samhain and Halloween will inspire me a bit.

Top - Shein
Collar - Killstar
Shoes - Gothic shoe co.
Skirt and cross belt - From a company with questionable ethics
Gloves - Ebay

Thursday, 3 September 2020

The wait

At the moment I am waiting for my internet to improve so I could stream. It doesn't look very good for today. But hopefully on Saturday when I want to do my birthday stream all will look better.
For Saturday night I kinda want to bring boyfriends steering wheel and pedals to the computer room and play Wreckfest and maybe drink while doing that.

For non stream things. I had a slight slump in my mental health and instead of it steadily improving like it has been doing for a month it took some steps back. So I took some days to just painting, playing and sleeping. Why do I get the deja vu feeling form saying that, oh gosh. 

I recently started an oil painting of my cat and hopefully that will be the first painting I feel comfortable sharing here after... years? I used to like sharing my art a lot but nowadays I just like painting for myself and very personal stuff. Those get pushed at the back of the closet but it's fine since it's more about the ritual of making them for me.

Necklace - Tommy Vowles
Waist belts - Boohoo
Chains - Hardware store
Skirt - Flea Market
Shoes - Gothic Shoe Co.
Top - Flea Market
Lace Gloves - Ebay

One thing about the fall coming soon is I start to get the urge to read a lot. Good thing I have a bunch of books waiting for me to grab them. Maybe some Stephen King? 

That's all for today! See you soon!