Sunday, 19 February 2017

Messy fluff

Today was really windy so my hair is a bit of a mess. Don't mind that. 

So sleepy all the time. I'm having slight problems with adjusting to the work times. But I'm sure I'll get used to it. Only two more days of the internship thing and then they hopefully hire me... Haven't signed anything yet.

Today I also realized that having a open balcony sucks even more than I thought. Feeling exposed, much wind, all the noises AGH!  

In work I have to wear company provided blue pants and a blue jacket (jacket is optional tho). So I don't really have to think about what to wear in the morning. It's easy, but also so boring as well.

But because of that, I really need to be myself in the weekends.

Scarf - Flea market
Vest - Diy, second hand
Longer vest - Flea market
Shirt - Flea market
Skirt - Flea market
Ankh - Backstreet, many years ago
Over knee socks - H&M
Woolly socks - Mom
Shoes - Flea market, New Rock
Gloves - Ebay
 Some time ago I also bought a ticket to see Skinny Puppy in Helsinki! They're coming to Finland this summer and I can't wait. Nor can't I wait to see  Nachtmahr in Lumous! I just can't wait for it to be summer already. Hope I don't have to work in inconvenient times tho.

Lately I have also been playing Nioh on PS4. It's a pretty awesome game, but it's really super duper hard. I try to make it on my own in it, but I often have to summon other players to help me on the bosses. Anyone else playing it? How are you doing on it?

Also it turns our I was wrong. I can not fit all my shoes in my closet. 

Sunday, 29 January 2017

New city, new life

The last few weeks have been so crazy! On 17th I got a call from a job I applied to and they told me I was accepted to a training program. If I would complete the one month they would hire me as a full time employee. 

The thing was though, the job would require me moving closer, to Uusikaupunki, and the program would start in 6 days. Yeah thanks for the heads up. 

So yeah, after lost of calls and arrangements we found a apartment. It's not perfect, and truth be told it's so stuck in the 70's that I cried when we had to settle to it. The wallpapers are stained and yellowish and the kitchen is very... retro. After living in a clean and renovated home for 4 years it does kinda make me sad.

The balcony isn't even glassed. I'm so sad for the kitties. Also it kinda makes me feel a bit uneasy while taking outfit pictures it seems.. 

Scarf - Flea market
Corset - Dracula Clothing
Belt bag - Gina tricot
Skirt - Flea market

As for the city, it's pretty tiny. Almost the size of the city where I grew up. Lot's of closed up shops, hardly any flea markets... I don't know how will I be able to live with that. Though it's only an hours ride back to Pori so I can visit there every once in a while.

If you can't tell, I have started to grow my eyebrows back. Just thought it would be more convenient in the job. Not that I would still like to shave them but at least it takes minutes of my mornings. Still going to shave them for special occasions though.

 I have already completed the first week of the training and there will be 3 weeks more. And I have to say that the atmosphere there is amazing and, the job I'm doing is somewhat fun as well! So far I like the job way more than my previous ones.

So you might say it's not all bad. At least the apartment is only 2 kilometers away from my job.

Also my new closet is at least two times the size as my old one. Though I'm still pretty sure my clothes wont fit in there. I still have like the half of my clothes back at the Pori apartment. At least all my shoes will probably fit there nicely when I have time to haul them over. Maybe I'll finally make that closet tour too.

Also the apartments is next to a lake. You only see it trough the kitchen window, but it's still nice. I can't wait till summer..

So yeah, funny how life changes so quickly! If someone had told me two weeks ago that I would live somewhere else next week I would had thought they were bonkers.

At least it's nice to have a change of pace. I had been without a job since fall and I had been starting to have slight cabin fever. And you know, having money never hurts. But I still miss Pori.

Thursday, 12 January 2017

Double Tail

It has been a very stormy weather here. Especially last night the wind was blowing like crazy! Windows were rattling and even though our balcony was closed there was a little bit of snow blown in from the tiny cracks. You can see some of the snow in these pictures, and also where the cat ate some of it. Ahaha.

He's such a cutie. He always wants to come to the balcony with me when I go take some outfit pictures. Though he wants back in pretty quickly when it get too cold for him.

Last weeks have been somewhat depressing but I try to keep myself more and more busy. I even signed myself to a community college class which is next month. It's a corset making class, I don't know how will it go since it's a new situation with new people in a new environment and it honestly sounds really scary to me.  

 I found this H&R jacket from a local flea market some time ago, and I really love it. Though it was one of those clothing items I had a hard time pairing with anything in my closet. Though now that I think of it, I can think quite a few items what would go with it too.

It's funny how some days it just feels so hard to think of a outfit, and some days you just have so many ideas. That's why I have a little notebook where I roughly sketch the ideas I thought so I can use it some other day. 

Jacket - H&R, Flea market
Skirt - Punk Rave, Second hand
Jabot - Punk Rave, Ebay
Belt - Self made
Shoes - Demonia, Second Hand
Bat Necklace - Alchemy Gothic, Second Hand
Tights - Ebay

One thing I have been doing most of this week is watching Games Done Quick! This must be the 3rd or 4th time I have been watching it. I have had it on pretty much 24/7. It's on till Sunday morning Finnish time, so if you want to check it out you can find it on twitch! It's a charity thing which I find really great.

I don't post outfits from the back too much but I just had to show you the double tail! 

I had a really great flea market trip last week! Since I had been so depressed, I thought maybe some second hand shopping would cheer me up. Even for a little while. And it did. 

And before anyone asks, no I don't have a LP player yet. I have been actively searching for one but I just haven't come across the perfect one yet. Hopefully soon~

Sunday, 1 January 2017

The Racing Heart

Woooo, the first post of 2017. 

What did I do on new year? Well nothing much really. I was doing a puzzle, making some accessories and jewelry while watching Spongebob from Viaplay. I must be the most interesting person ever oh my gosh. Though we did a quick run at the store and the liquor store but I decided not to drink after all. I even fell asleep before 12. Though I was rudely waken at 12 when the neighbors started to bang their rockets very close by.

Few days ago I had a little anxiety episode which included a trip to the ER late in the night. Not to mention my dad calling me, while I was on my way there, and informing that our family dog isn't doing so well. Great, everything's just great.

After I got out of the monitoring ward and the "all clear" to head home that same night, I had been feeling somewhat better. Let's hope it stays that way.

So yeah I was making some diy stuff yesterday and I thought it would be cool to make a kind of chain belt. So I tore apart some old necklace scarps I had, and put together this cross belt! I was thinking I would make a similar one with ankhs as well. 

I was thinking tough that I would make a little giveaway on this blog, and the prize would be a similar belt to this one, or the ankh version. Would that be something you would like? I would of course make it the winners preferred size. Though this one I made for myself  is very adjustable so I can wear it as high as I want or as low as I want.

Oh my, sorry about the horrible mess at the back it always happen when I get ready in the morning.. 

I also have 2 diy jackets in progress and I have ordered these 2 back patches for them. Sure I could have made some kind of patches myself, but with the stuff I currently have it would had taken forever or it could had not worked at all. But well, it always makes me happy to help out some etsy shops. 

I just can't decide which one to put on the faux fur jacket and which on to the leather jacket. These decisions always tare me apart.

The Munsters patch is from a etsy shop called Evil Thread Customs and the Siouxsie one is from a etsy shop called MEOWMEOWZpasadena

I do highly recommend both shops!

Anyways I hope you had a great start of the year 2017!

Saturday, 24 December 2016


Gah I hate all the darkness all the time. I took these outfit pictures today when it was the most light outside. But they still turned out so very dark and smudgy. But oh well they'll do. 

The last weeks all I have been doing is melting into our couch... Playing games and so on. I did got a job interview but I just don't have any idea how it went. If I do get it then it would mean moving and I have kinda developed a liking to Pori.. (and it's flea markets).

But I guess the reason I haven't been out of bed nor sofa is that I have been feeling somewhat down. I'm not sure if there's something wrong with me physically or just mentally, but I suppose I should visit the doctor after the holidays in either case.

Top - Flea market
Skirt - Spin doctor, second hand
Corset belt - ebay
Other belts - Flea market
Shoes - Demonia, Second hand

Today we are going to go eat with some of my boyfriends family so hopefully that will cheer me up at least a little.

I have tried to cheer myself up by gifting myself a little. For one I bought these books from adlibris, except the Pohjoismaiset Taruolennot or The Nordic mythical creatures. All of them are interesting works.

I also bought some board games! And a puzzle from the Flea Market.

Pokemon moon I got ages ago and I have already kinda played through it as well, but it's still fun to play every now and then.

When my friend was here some time ago, we toured all the good flea markets in Pori. These "rocks" were my favorite finds. I have wanted a salt stone lamp forever.

So yeah there's really nothing more to tell. I'm hoping my mood will improve so I can start updating more often again. But anyway, hope everyone is having nice holiday times!

Monday, 31 October 2016

The Bondage Princess

Hope everyone is having a great Smahain!
I really didn't have any plans or money to celebrate it. I was kinda planning on a costume, but it would of had required some white clothing and I don't really have any... But anyway I'm just going to celebrate it my way. And I thought I could at least look nice for it. I kinda have a thing for using bondage attire in with my clothing. But I also like puffy things (if you had not already guessed haha) so I though it would be weird and cool to mix them together.

For some reason I got this idea that I need to learn German. So like a week ago I uploaded Duolingo on my phone and have been adventuring around German learning websites. Ich bin eine Frau! I hope I can stick with it and not just get lazy at some point. Though it's weird to learn German through English, I think it might actually be easier since there isn't the weird Finnish system making me all confused. And my English is pretty good anyways.

I kinda hate how yesterday I got this makeup spot on, but then I decided not to take pictures that day. Today it just didn't want to work in any way. BLEH.

On youtube I like to watch those Abandoned Places - videos. Like asylums, mansions etc. So to get to the spooky mood today I watched a real marathon of those. If you want to check a cool channel I recommend "The Proper People". They really know their stuff. They actually research the places they explore so they can tell you the backstory. Which I appreciate.

Harness - Aliexpress
Top - H&M
Belt - Ebay
Tulle skirt - Ebay
Skirt - Flea market
Shoes - Demonia, second hand 

Lately I have also been wasting my days away with the Final Fantasy XIV - A Realm Reborn. It really must be the best MMORPG I have played so far. They even had a cool Halloween stuff around these days. Though unlike the Elder Scrolls Online, this one has a monthly payment, which is a bummer. 

I feel somewhat better these days. But it's still kind hard to sleep and I avoid sleeping as much as I can. Today the clocks were also tuned to winter time, and I believe that will just screw me up more. But what can you do.

I also hate how the light time of the days are so minimal that I need to effin plan my day if I want to take any pictures that day. Also you must not forget the oh so lovely winter depression. 

Tuesday, 25 October 2016

Samhain Tears

Lately I have been hiding from the world. 

I have been cleaning, playing, decorating... Whatever you can do at home. Some weeks ago I lost my last grandparent and it made me really depressed. My thoughts keep me awake at night and I don't really feel like seeing or talking to much anyone.

I like to dress how I feel so I'm thinking my outfit today was pretty spot on.

I'm slowly starting to feel better. It's just as a hypersensitive person, these things are hard for me.

Hat - Flea market
Top - Punk Rave, ebay
Brooch - The pumpkin coven
Corset - Dracula Clothing
Skirt - Spin doctor, Second hand
Shoes - Fantasy Shoes, Second hand

Yesterday though, I left home for a final Halloween round up. I just wanted to get it done with before Halloween 

From Sinooperi I got some candles, bottle labels and some spiderweb ribbon.

From H&M I got skull towels, bat towels and miscellaneous stuff. As well as a bat print dress. But I'm kinda having a hard time using it with anything since heavily printed clothes aren't usually my thing.

From Lidl I got these molds. Last year I got some similar stuff from them so I thought I would refill my collection. Coffin shaped cupcakes would be awsome..

From Lindex child department I got these adorable socks!

I even made myself to go to the flea market and I picked up these pumpkins and a candle holder.

I had already raided Tiger for Halloween stuff put I went again and got some stuff I forgot. The slime coffins are so cute! They are pretty hefty plastic and they have cool pattern on the side of them. I thought I would  make something cool out of them when I get bored of the slime.

I also have some pictures from our home for getting in to the mood of Halloween.

Don't you dare to laugh at my old tiny bedroom tv!

I don't really decorate for Samhain. I decorate for the whole year. It's just that around Samhain the amount of decorations multiply for obvious reason.

Sometime ago I changed my blog pictures a bit. Now you can click sideways pictures and you can see them bigger. Just if you want to see some details a bit better.

Hopefully I can gather my energies and celebrate Samhain properly. I hope everyone else is really enjoying the Fall season!