It's been rough. I worked half a month without having a day off. For now I decided it would be best not to take any extra work or I might die. The thing is, I just don't need all that money.
I mean sure money is nice and I love buying new clothes, games, books and such. But it's also kinda depressing that I have no time to wear, play or read anything.
I used to love dressing up even if I was just going to the store or lounge around at home. Now it kinda just feels like when I do it, that I could use that time to sleep or just rest. Hence the dramatic decrease in blog posts. We have work clothes at work and I have to keep my hair tied or I will get glue all over it. So there's really nothing much to see.
You might think it's a easy life. Not having to take care of my looks. But the truth is also that it makes me so depressed. I have the need to express myself. I have no time to dress up, not to paint, not to draw, no nothing. It's making me sad and unsocial... Even more than usual.
I'll try to balance this somehow so I could also blog more. Because I really want to do that. At least no more working overtime this year.
Anyways, now we have at least a few days off so I decided to dress up. Even tough I almost gave up half way through. I got this vintage velvet dress from etsy. Isn't it magical? It even got it's own cape sewn on it.
Taking pictures on the balcony has been impossible lately. Either the sun is all wrong or it's way too windy. Our apartment is a bit cramped and it's so annoying.
My boyfriend decided to splurge a bit and buy the VR headset for PS4. I had such a fun time watching him play with it yesterday and I'm hoping I will have a turn today or tomorrow. I also bought the drinks for an extra fun VR time!
I can understand about the conflict of sleep or dressing and not feeling like yourself its always a hard one. It think it takes time trying to get the right balance.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I love your gorgeous dress its amazing find.
Indeed. I hope I figure it out soon, I'd hate to wallow in this feeling much longer.
DeleteAnd thanks! :)
I feel you so much, i've been there, too. Screw people who might think it's shallow to feel depressed because of not having time to wear something nice - self-expression is important. I hope you'll find balance in your life once again.
ReplyDeleteThanks, I really hope so too.
DeleteI can understand how you feel, not having time for yourself and doing what you like is really depressing indeed...I experience that too because stupid uni :/ I think you did the right choice, being good in both body and mind is the most important thing.Also, your dress is a thing of magic *-*
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're going through the same thing. :/ I hope it will get better eventually for you too.
DeleteYou have my favorite outfits and you're a layering genius. I hope you can balance your life into a happier place!
ReplyDeleteThank ýou, it's nice to hear that :) I'll do my best!
DeleteTosi kiva asu taas! Vapaa-aika on kyllä tosi tärkeää jaksamisen kannalta ja kaikkea ei kuitenkaan mitata vain rahassa. Muista pitää myös niitä vapaapäiviä :)
ReplyDeleteKiitos! Yritän muistaa :')
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