Monday, 28 October 2013

Good hair day

Went to get my hair cut.
I was a bit sad to see almost 40cm of my hair fall from my head. But in the end, I was quite happy!

When I put my hair all poofy, it actually stayed that way all day long! And didn't get flat as a pancake after the first hour.

Gah I could not get any more pictures, only that one crappy one that I took in the morning, why does it get so dark so sooon?

Ohh yeah, I got this from ebay!
(stole the pic from there too)

It came with little earrings too. Also my loonng skirt came in the mail today too! I can't wait to wear it!

Ohh and yeah! Welcome new followers! There's quite few of you! Hope you stick around! :)

Tuesday, 22 October 2013

Why do you dress goth?

A question that can either bring out someones defenses or maybe just a loud sigh.

Well I guess always have had a passion for black. I have always worn strange things, have had lots of negative comments about it too. In junior high school it they really crushed my spirits and I mostly used normal clothes, with some minor touches of my own. Like some arm warmers, band shirts, dark make up... I still remember the day I had the courage to wear bold dark eyeliner for the first time. There were people laughing behind my back, classmates making rude comments and laughing, some fake ass bitch who came up to me and asked "Oh wow how did you do thaaaat? Is it like in your eye?". I didn't know she was just mocking me at the time, I do now.

I also had an account in some picture thing online. You know, where you post your pictures? Some of my friends had an account there too. Also the same ass twat who rudely commented on my make-up had an account there. I posted some pictures, just normal stuff. Then I posted this one picture where I was at a cruise ship cafe, I had a funny face, I also had one of those baseball caps on, those what the "saggy pants" use. I had got it from Tallinn, as a souvenir. I liked it since it had a really cool skull on it and it was all black. I wore it because I liked it, I didn't care if it was really in my "style range" or not. Well anyway, the bitch commented something like this:

H: Onks sulla tommone lippa?
Minä: matkamuisto
H: Ahaa okeei.. Mä jo luulin että sä oot jokin wannabe gootti-hevari-hoppari tai jotai
Minä: ...


H: You have a cap like that? :o
Me: A souvenir
H: Oooh. okaaay.. I thought you were a some kind of wannabe goth-metalhead-rapper or something
Me: ...

I got so angry about that comment. If I would get a comment like that today, I would punch the person in the face the next time I saw her/him.

At this time (about 7-8th grade) I only mostly listened to metal. Mostly liked to be identified as a metal head. Didn't really know much about goth music at all.

In 9th grade I got depressed. I stopped giving a fuck about what people say. My clothing got more and more black, and more what I wanted it to be. Slowly I got over the depression, but the not giving a fuck just stayed. In high school I felt like I could wear what ever I wanted, and I did. I discovered the music in first year of high school. From there it has grown to the way it is now in to a lifestyle. Slowly but surely, I have taken the things in my head, out in the open, for all people to see.

In black I feel home. I'ts just the color that pleases my eye. So why wouldn't I wear black? Black is beautiful. It's the ultimate darkness that makes me feel like myself. I love all things dark. It makes me feel beautiful to myself. Black clothes are in harmony with each other, they are like little pieces of art that I can combine in the ways that I want, to make myself a walking sculpture. With it I can fulfill my artistic needs every day. Gothic culture has the masters of dark wear. After I started following the culture, and I ended up picking little tips here and there. Ways to perfect my little pieces. I get inspired by the music, culture, movies, little creepy crawlies, and just about anything!

If I someone ever told me to wear something else, I would punch them from here to mars. It's my joy and pleasure to look the way I want to. It has taken me years to come to this point, I am not going to change myself, people are just going to have to deal with it. My personality, likes and dislikes come with this look. It's a package deal. But still, I don't take me, or myself too seriously. I can laugh at myself.

From tumblr

Friday, 18 October 2013

Leather and Lace

Holidays have finally arrived! 9 days of sweet sweet vacation!
Samhain is also at hand.

Some people in my class had organized a class party for today, all in our class was invited. I said I'd go few weeks ago, but I got around thinking about it.. and I don't like most people in our class. Their view on the world is just too different for me to have any kind of conversation. With a few exceptions. I'ts just... ugh, I can't stand most of them! And just to think I'd have to stand them when they are drunk? No thank you, just no. I'd have to black out in the beginning to have a good time.

In other news, I have gotten interested in Wicca again. I have been reading The Encyclopedia of Witches, Witchcraft, and Wicca. Also a Wiccan bible. I have to say.. in my early Wicca years.. there was much I didn't know. Like a ocean of knowledge that I didn't even take a look at. I'm rather interested in herbal healing and controlling my energy.

On more shallow side of life.
I got 2 new belts.
The right one is real leather, the left one is some vegan friendly stuff. I have been wanting the belt on the left for ages! I'm so glad I finally got it!

Outfit picture goes here:

That cat is so crazy, trying to take photos and he runs all over the place.
Talking about cats.. We are taking another one! To accompany Pippuri while we are at school and work. He really needs a friend to play with too. We are looking around kissojen katastrofiyhdistys if we can find a suitable cat friend.

So, I also got this real leather jacket last weekend. It's from the Syksyn, October Swap Meet. In Teivon ravirata. All sorts of cool thing there, a fucking pretty hearse too! I love this jacket, it's a old model jacket since it really tight fitting on my vaist but the top part is huge! I love it. And only cost me 10e.

I have been very anti social lately. I feel like I have no energy to do talk to anyone. Just want to lay in our bedroom, read some books, watch some movies, listen to some music. Oh yess..

Friday, 11 October 2013

A little halloween tip!

Yesterday I was bored, and decided to make out bedroom a little bit more cozy. I added candles, little bats on the walls, self made dream catchers etc. I also wanted to do something else. So I looked up instructions for this! All you need is yarn and tape (or Blu tack.) Hmm I may have to add some more yarn on the top, but I'll do that later!

If you want to do your own spider web, here's a easy instruction for it:

I may also add spiders to it later.


Ahh sweet sweet weekend.
You have finally come.

Also, sweet sweet fall. I can't love fall enough. All the pretty colored trees and the little places that look like a professional photograph. And I can burn candles alll evening.

Some people hate when it's almost like winter but it almost is like not so they want the snow to come. I don't want the snow, I want it to be like this forever.

Usually when the first snow comes, I my winter depression kicks in. Can we just skip winter please?

Eep! I bought this bag from a friend. I can't love it enough! It's a perfect size for school, so now it's my school bag. My old school bag.. Well.. It had a good run. I have used it since the beginning of 7th grade! It barely stays in one piece.

Hehee this shirt is awsome, I feel like I have little bat wings!

Have a fun weekend everyone! I'll go packing since I'm leaving to go to my parents place today!

Monday, 7 October 2013

Monday - Oh, how I hate you!

I friggin hate Mondays, especially this one. I had school until 4pm and when I get home... Some builders in this apartment building started to drill the walls?? It was a horrible noise for a few hours. I almost lost my temper.

I bought Bioshock Infinite from Steam sale! I was downloading it all yesterday and today... My damn graphics card drivers were old. So after a hour of messing with that I try again. This time Steam stopped working. So I just calmly re-install it. For some fucked up reason, when I do that, all my games are deleted. It should not do that. Well... Now I have a bunch of games to re-install. I hope I get to play tomorrow.

And todayyy:

Well I guess I'll put this last weeks picture too.

I was supposed to make a really long opinion post, but I forgot half of the stuff I was supposed to write. I guess next time huh?