Start of Fall

I have a constant sleepy feeling, I think I need to start exercising every now and then to not feel like a big baked potato.

   

But anyways. I got 2 months free trial on skillshare. Initially I wanted freshen up my oil painting knowledge so I could make the best painting of my cat I could. But that kind of got jammed since I noticed I don't have a big enough canvas for it. So before I can proceed with that I need to find a proper sized canvas.

Life seems slow. 

 

It makes me giddy seeing the leaves changing and Halloween stuff popping up in stores... I really don't have any money at the moment to spend on such things, but just seeing them makes me dive in to the Fall feels.

Seriously I can't even remember when was the last time I styled my hair this way.. Must be like 5 years ago. I really wanna test all sorts of different styles to see which ones work best for me.

I constantly wanna stream but I just feel so tiered that sleeping seems more appealing right now. Need to get my shit together. Makes me sad that sleepiness and general exhaustion keep me away form my art projects and other stuff I love doing. Kinda funny how most of my blogposts recently seem to be pictures of me + me complaining how sleepy or depressed I am. Oh gosh.

I hope Fall, Samhain and Halloween will inspire me a bit.

Top - Shein
Collar - Killstar
Shoes - Gothic shoe co.
Skirt and cross belt - From a company with questionable ethics
Gloves - Ebay

The wait

At the moment I am waiting for my internet to improve so I could stream. It doesn't look very good for today. But hopefully on Saturday when I want to do my birthday stream all will look better.
For Saturday night I kinda want to bring boyfriends steering wheel and pedals to the computer room and play Wreckfest and maybe drink while doing that.

For non stream things. I had a slight slump in my mental health and instead of it steadily improving like it has been doing for a month it took some steps back. So I took some days to just painting, playing and sleeping. Why do I get the deja vu feeling form saying that, oh gosh. 

I recently started an oil painting of my cat and hopefully that will be the first painting I feel comfortable sharing here after... years? I used to like sharing my art a lot but nowadays I just like painting for myself and very personal stuff. Those get pushed at the back of the closet but it's fine since it's more about the ritual of making them for me.

Necklace - Tommy Vowles
Waist belts - Boohoo
Chains - Hardware store
Skirt - Flea Market
Shoes - Gothic Shoe Co.
Top - Flea Market
Lace Gloves - Ebay

One thing about the fall coming soon is I start to get the urge to read a lot. Good thing I have a bunch of books waiting for me to grab them. Maybe some Stephen King? 

That's all for today! See you soon!