Darkness

Gah I hate all the darkness all the time. I took these outfit pictures today when it was the most light outside. But they still turned out so very dark and smudgy. But oh well they'll do. 

The last weeks all I have been doing is melting into our couch... Playing games and so on. I did got a job interview but I just don't have any idea how it went. If I do get it then it would mean moving and I have kinda developed a liking to Pori.. (and it's flea markets).

But I guess the reason I haven't been out of bed nor sofa is that I have been feeling somewhat down. I'm not sure if there's something wrong with me physically or just mentally, but I suppose I should visit the doctor after the holidays in either case.

Top - Flea market
Skirt - Spin doctor, second hand
Corset belt - ebay
Other belts - Flea market
Shoes - Demonia, Second hand

Today we are going to go eat with some of my boyfriends family so hopefully that will cheer me up at least a little.

I have tried to cheer myself up by gifting myself a little. For one I bought these books from adlibris, except the Pohjoismaiset Taruolennot or The Nordic mythical creatures. All of them are interesting works.

I also bought some board games! And a puzzle from the Flea Market.

Pokemon moon I got ages ago and I have already kinda played through it as well, but it's still fun to play every now and then.

When my friend was here some time ago, we toured all the good flea markets in Pori. These "rocks" were my favorite finds. I have wanted a salt stone lamp forever.

So yeah there's really nothing more to tell. I'm hoping my mood will improve so I can start updating more often again. But anyway, hope everyone is having nice holiday times!

The Bondage Princess

Hope everyone is having a great Smahain!

I really didn't have any plans or money to celebrate it. I was kinda planning on a costume, but it would of had required some white clothing and I don't really have any... But anyway I'm just going to celebrate it my way. And I thought I could at least look nice for it. I kinda have a thing for using bondage attire in with my clothing. But I also like puffy things (if you had not already guessed haha) so I though it would be weird and cool to mix them together.

For some reason I got this idea that I need to learn German. So like a week ago I uploaded Duolingo on my phone and have been adventuring around German learning websites. Ich bin eine Frau! I hope I can stick with it and not just get lazy at some point. Though it's weird to learn German through English, I think it might actually be easier since there isn't the weird Finnish system making me all confused. And my English is pretty good anyways.

I kinda hate how yesterday I got this makeup spot on, but then I decided not to take pictures that day. Today it just didn't want to work in any way. BLEH.

On youtube I like to watch those Abandoned Places - videos. Like asylums, mansions etc. So to get to the spooky mood today I watched a real marathon of those. If you want to check a cool channel I recommend "The Proper People". They really know their stuff. They actually research the places they explore so they can tell you the backstory. Which I appreciate.

Harness - Aliexpress
Top - H&M
Belt - Ebay
Tulle skirt - Ebay
Skirt - Flea market
Shoes - Demonia, second hand 

Lately I have also been wasting my days away with the Final Fantasy XIV - A Realm Reborn. It really must be the best MMORPG I have played so far. They even had a cool Halloween stuff around these days. Though unlike the Elder Scrolls Online, this one has a monthly payment, which is a bummer. 

I feel somewhat better these days. But it's still kind hard to sleep and I avoid sleeping as much as I can. Today the clocks were also tuned to winter time, and I believe that will just screw me up more. But what can you do.

I also hate how the light time of the days are so minimal that I need to effin plan my day if I want to take any pictures that day. Also you must not forget the oh so lovely winter depression. 

Samhain Tears

Lately I have been hiding from the world. 

I have been cleaning, playing, decorating... Whatever you can do at home. Some weeks ago I lost my last grandparent and it made me really depressed. My thoughts keep me awake at night and I don't really feel like seeing or talking to much anyone.

I like to dress how I feel so I'm thinking my outfit today was pretty spot on.

I'm slowly starting to feel better. It's just as a hypersensitive person, these things are hard for me.

Hat - Flea market
Top - Punk Rave, ebay
Brooch - The pumpkin coven
Corset - Dracula Clothing
Skirt - Spin doctor, Second hand
Shoes - Fantasy Shoes, Second hand

Yesterday though, I left home for a final Halloween round up. I just wanted to get it done with before Halloween 

From Sinooperi I got some candles, bottle labels and some spiderweb ribbon.

From H&M I got skull towels, bat towels and miscellaneous stuff. As well as a bat print dress. But I'm kinda having a hard time using it with anything since heavily printed clothes aren't usually my thing.

From Lidl I got these molds. Last year I got some similar stuff from them so I thought I would refill my collection. Coffin shaped cupcakes would be awsome..

From Lindex child department I got these adorable socks!

I even made myself to go to the flea market and I picked up these pumpkins and a candle holder.

I had already raided Tiger for Halloween stuff put I went again and got some stuff I forgot. The slime coffins are so cute! They are pretty hefty plastic and they have cool pattern on the side of them. I thought I would  make something cool out of them when I get bored of the slime.

I also have some pictures from our home for getting in to the mood of Halloween.

Don't you dare to laugh at my old tiny bedroom tv!

I don't really decorate for Samhain. I decorate for the whole year. It's just that around Samhain the amount of decorations multiply for obvious reason.

Sometime ago I changed my blog pictures a bit. Now you can click sideways pictures and you can see them bigger. Just if you want to see some details a bit better.

Hopefully I can gather my energies and celebrate Samhain properly. I hope everyone else is really enjoying the Fall season! 

The Cure at Helsinki + Helsinki haul!

Last Friday me and my friend went to see The Cure in Helsinki! I had been their fan forever and it was just such a surreal feeling to see them live... 

We got there early and we had field tickets, I just can't believe how close we got to them. Like they were right in front of us!
  

Do I spot some new rocks? :') Hehee... Anyways, I really liked the show! Robert Smith threw a bit of jokes and small talk between the songs and it made the concert not feel so official and stuck up. I don't know if that persona that showed is just a stage thing but I would really like to believe he's like that in person too.

The field life wasn't all roses and flowers... People touching you all the time, jumping next to you, trying to shove themselves in front of you... screaming like it's the end of the world. Overflowing bag hurting my neck (because I was just too cheap and excited to pay for the cloakroom). I know people express their enthusiasm differently but I really do prefer the calm admiring approach over the screaming and fainting kind.
 

I'm kinda sad that the pictures I took from the whole band didn't really turn out so well. But ohhh at least you'll see a lot of Robert Smith :'').

I did feel somewhat bad for the people standing behind me since I had backcombed my wig to the max and it really stood out. Probably made it harder for some to see. Sorry! But I did get lots of compliments on it from older men tho, haha!

Before the show we stocked up on some merch. The t-shirts there were ridiculously pricey so I settled on this canvas bad and pin-back set, though those weren't so cheap either. The bag was 20€ and the set 5€.

We had some time before and the day after the concert to shop! Pretty quickly we found a party(?) shop from Forum which had looadddds of hallween stuff on stock. From there I grabbed this shiny life sized skull piggy bank and a spiderweb table cover!

We also visited a flea market! Found this neat hat! It's kinda mourning hat'ish and I really like that!7

From Gina Tricot I picked up this belt pocket thing and some eye shadows. I had been looking for their black eye shadow everywhere. The one I have now is almost gone and it's the best matte black eye shadow I had ever had. But it looks like they are discontinuing it since I found these form the sales bin... Well at least I'll survive with these for a while!

This jacket is also form the flea market!

And we also visited UFF's store. It took some digging around but I did find this sinister skirt and this spider webby shirt with no brand name. Probably have to exchange the strings on it since they are a bit tattered, but otherwise it's fabulous! Uhh sorry I didn't even take the tags off yet.. :'D

Ah well I didn't really take outfit pictures or anything like that. I just kinda threw something on in the morning since I had spend the days before playing... Oopsie! But well you'll see a lot of me usually on my posts so it's nice to do something different for a change!

Stockholm trip

We have returned from our boat trip to Stockholm! All in all it was a very nice trip and a nice change of pace. It also kinda makes you appreciate home after a trip like that.

Here's what I got for myself! Though my boyfriend bought the Dragon Blood. The Kraken rum is from the ship as well as the small skull vodka and the clear skull candle holder along with the Moomin magnets. From Stockholm I got the Skull and the Kat Von D Lock it foundation in the color 42 and the same brand lipstick in the color Slayer.

It was my very first time visiting Sephora, it was interesting, lots of people running around like crazy.

I also got a bunch of other stuff for friends and such but I wont show those so I wont ruin the surprise! + Of course a lot of candy.

I really liked this picture I took just before we left home!  

This was our hotel room in Stockholm. The hotel was Comfort Hotel Stockholm. It was fairly far away from the ship terminal but we decided to walk anyway... I was kinda hoping to use the metro to get there but it was kinda overwhelming for me. :'D Someone even stopped to help us for a while when we tried to mess with the ticket machine but we just ended up walking anyway.

Well we didn't really stop to take much photos. We just felt like enjoying ourselves instead. Shopping, wandering and just sitting in random places and watching the world go by.

When we got back home, my boyfriend got pretty sick. Don't know where he got it but I guess it's easy to catch something when you are travelling. Just hoping I wont catch what he got since The Cure concert is next week! Gahh! Super exciting!

Fall shopping tips

I have had this weird flu or something for a week now. I have been hurting in really weird places and all that. So we postponed our trip to Stockholm to this week. Now I kinda feel better and I'm pretty sure we can go in the end of the week!

But anyway even if I like it or not, I usually end up internet shopping while I'm bedridden. And this time was not an exception.

I did find some cool stuff, so I thought that I would share these with you if you would happen to like them and want them for yourself!

From PartyLite:

So from PartyLite I got these two things!

The candle jar thing was 24,90€ and the bat was 29,90€

The hanging bat thing is so cool too! You can put a candle behind it and hang it somewhere. OR you can take the chain off and just place it upright in the table!

Also from partylite I would had wanted these ones...

 But the bundle with 3 candle holders is 24,90€ and the cauldron is a whopping 44,90€! 

My total would had been too much for the budget so I'll still think about whether I get these or not.

At least in the Finnish partylite, these will be available till 15.10.2016!

From H&M:

Joy division shirt form the men's side 14,99€

The Edward Scissorhands tank top  also 14,99€

I really love these shirts, they are so soft!

So the links take you to the Finnish websites but I know partylite and H&M has shops all over world so you can probably find these in most countries websites!

And also here's something just for the Finns!  

K-Citymarket:

Pumpkin 3,95€ and I think the weird skull candle thing was also the same price!

So see you next week hopefully with some cool pictures and stories from our trip!

Have a nice fall y'all!

23 years of failing

Whopee! Today I turned 23. 

Can't I just stop ageing now? Or at least in the few years. Someone invent immortality please. Or if you guys know any vampires that would help out too.

In the morning we went to a charity shop and a flea market. Found some good stuff too! Including a book about Nick Cave.

After that we went to get some junk food. A comfy birthday is to my liking! 

Shirt - H&M
Skirt - Second hand
Belts - Flea market
Shoes - Fantasy Shoes, Second hand
Choker - Etsy
Rosary - Glitter

I'm also somewhat happy about how my makeup turned out today!

I used to not like pencil skirts very much, but they have really grown on me. I especially like how they look in a trad look.

Also this bag arrived today! It's form Banned. I got is second hand but it's pretty much good as new! I have wanted this for so long, I can't wait to use it on our tip to Stockholm! I can finally fit all my stuff somewhere, hehe.

And this song is always mandatory at a day like this.

Now it's time for some rum...