Sunday, 26 April 2015

Realisation

Phew, so a month went by and a lot happened in that single month. It was a month that made me realize what I want from myself in the future and it makes me very happy.

First of all, I turned down the summer job that was offered to me. It was in a another city, which would have meant that I would have had to live with my parents all summer. Also I am not cut out to sit in front of a cash register, it's not for me. I rather be poor than miserable.

Also because of reasons I was made to quit my schools apprentice thing. I was very upset about it a even few days after. But this is the first day I feel good about it, I could not give a shit about it anymore. I got a new apprentice job just a few kilometers from our home in Pori, so that meant I got to move back home early. I am so happy here. But I am SO mad at my teacher, I hated her before and I still hate her. She once again complained how I can not use piercings and a face full of makeup in my new apprentice job. Complain 1: Is she fucking blind? I don't have any other piercings than my ear ones?! Complain 2: I never ever put makeup on when I work, I am just that lazy. She said that she needed to say it AGAIN because I used to use have heavy make up to school every once in a while. Does she think I can't tell apart the jobs where I can look they way I want, from the ones where I have to restrict myself? I fucking hate her so much. Complain 3: Bet she didn't say anything about these to anyone else.

I had to do some (expensive) unplanned travelling back to Pori  because of all this, so I don't know if I can attend my friends birthday in a few weeks. I'll do my best because I'd really love to be there!

But the reason I feel good about being home is just that it made me realize I am in a COMPLETELY in the wrong trade. Hahahahaaa so I realized this 3 weeks before I graduate haha fuck. Well at least I realized it pretty early, not after I work for 10 years in a job I hate.

I need a trade that is artistic, inspirational, creative and where I can express myself! Or my life long dream of opening my own business, where I can be myself. At least that way this business trade would not be a complete waste of my time.

This book is so interesting I almost can't put it down!

I was kinda sad when I only had 1 trip to Tampere flea markets in these 3 months. Either I had no time or no money. I did visit some in Kangasala regularly but those kinda sucked. When I got back to Pori, I went trough alll the flea markets and found a shitload of stuff. It made me want to cry happy tears when in the first table of the first flea market I found these babies:


10€, brand new, and in my size! *happy tears*


I have been very VERY scared of leaving the house with my new camera, so I ordered this camera bag from aliexpress. The remote shutter is also form there and ohhh how easy it makes the outfit photos Ah.. I usually do add a outfit photo in my posts, but I have not been in the mood of taking them lately. I need to dye my hair again and also I have been just going around as a mess, haha. But yeah I'll promise you a new post next week. :)


Anyone else tried gel eyeliner..? I just found this miracle of make up and fell in love in the first time using it. Sure the application with the brush kinda needs some practice but other than that.. I love it! I can also use it as a kajal on my waterline and it stays on alllll day. Which is so much better that the pencils kajalas I have used before this.They stay on my waterline a maximum of 1 hour, which sucks. + the pencil crumbles, and the bits get in my eye... Just love that this product doesn't go anywhere. But I do admit it is a pain to remove after a day since it does really not want to go ANYWHERE. xD


In my diy department I made some horns! They turned out okay, but not 100% the way I wanted. If anyone would like to know how I made these I would be more than happy to make a tutorial, they are so easy to make and you can find all the things you need at home! :) Would also give me a good reason to make another pair for myself. ;)

In the gaming department I have been playing Heroes of might and magic V. My boyfriend got it for me as a present and I am so excited, since I used to play Heroes III for hours as a little kid. I love the V since they saved a lot from the III and kinda improved it!

Ohh, I can't wait for summer and Lumous.. I already have 1 outfit planned. Well saves me the last minute panic.

Tomorrow I start at my new apprentice place, so wish me luck. :)

16 comments:

  1. Vau mikä kirppislöytö noi Fistit o__O tosi hienot! Kelpais XD

    Hei voisiks viel kertoo vähän suomeks tosta eyelinerista, kun en nyt jaksa tajuta englantia, sori :D Tajusin siis sen verran, että tolla on aluks vähän vaikee piirtää, mut siihen oppii? Onkos toi siis sellainen lineri mistä se "väri" tulee suoraan jostain purkista, vai onko toi joku sivellin-tyyppinen, ja sitä sivellintä sipaistaan johkin värinappiin ja sit laitetaan? :D sori oon tosi vajaa kun en tajua. Mä kattelin tota tuotetta just laivalla ja meinasin ostaa, mut en sit ostanu. Ja onks toi veden kestävää? Mulle eyelinerin vedenkestävyys on ihan must.

    Vaikuttaa muuten ihan vitunmoiselta vajakilta toi ope joka valittaa turhasta -__- mulla oli kerran kans koulussa joku opettaja, joka sano mulle, että "älä sit laita töihin noita kenkiä mitkä sulla nyt on" (tarkotti mun paksupohjasia Demonioita) ja mä sanoin just nasevasti takas että "joo en kyl niin vitun tyhmä ole". Sanoin ihan suoraan ku alko niin paljon vituttaan tollanen kommentointi. Että pidetään ihan tyhmänä -___-

    Mäki ootan Lumousta ihan innolla *___* voi kun olis sillon rahaa. Jossei oo ni pakko lainata, koska mulla jäi viime kesänä Lumous välistä, niin tänä kesänä en sitä kyl missaa.

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    1. No äläpä mitään! :D

      Juu tottakai, mu englanti on joskus tosi sekavaa. :'D Juu eli tuossa pikku boxissa tulee tavallinen sivellin ja tuo purkki josta sitten otetaan siihen siveltimeen väriä ja suditaan naamaan. En ole ennen tottunut tekemään näin isolla sudilla rajauksia joten tosiaan tarvii jokusen kerran harjoitella. :D Ja se aine purkissa on semmoista pehmeää ja geelimäistä ja hyvin levittyvää. Ja tosiaan on vedenkestävä! Melkein poistoaineenkin kestävä :''D Suosittelen. :)

      No hitsi kuulostaa tuokin opettaja ihan persläpiltä. :( Miten osaavat ollakkin niin ärsyttäviä, ikuinen mysteeri.

      Viime lumous oli kyllä todella kiva ja tulee sitten vielä kivempi varmasti kunhan sinäkin pääset tulemaan! :)

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  2. Your teacher sounds awfully judgmental :/ I would just ignore her. It's good to hear you have a new apprenticeship and won't have to take that cashier job. I've been applying for shitty jobs out of desperation but I wish I could do something with my art... We need more creative jobs in this world.

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    1. Yeah, it's a good thing I don't have to put up with her much longer, :)

      It does indeed need more creative jobs! Most jobs are like: "You do this or you don't do anything." I would love to be my own boss someday.

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  3. oh, onpa upean näköinen painos Aradiasta! Mistä sinä tuollaisen aarteen olet löytänyt? Ite oon monesti selaillu kanssa kirjasta, mutta oon törmänny vaan aika köykäsen näköseen pikku pokkariin niin jääny sitte hankkimatta :D

    Ja hei mä oisin ainaki kiinnostunu sarvitutoriaalista!

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    1. Aradia on Antikvariaatti Lukuhetkestä. Itse kauppahan on Jyväskylässä mutta he myyvät paljon kiinnostavia kirjoja omilla sivuillaan http://www.lukuhetki.fi/product.php?id=44435 sekä heillä on huutonetissä myös accountti. :) Näitä heillä taisi olla enemmänkin eli jos etsii esim huutonetissä kirjan nimellä niin pitäisi löytyä!

      Ja mukava kuulla! Pitänee väsäillä! :)

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  4. haha, ei kiesus mikä opettaja sulla!

    Olen hiplannut tuota eyelineria monet kerrat kaupassa, mutta en ole raaskinut ostaa. Ehkä voisi joku päivä käydä ostamassa, kun uudelle olisi tarvetta.

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    1. Oikein ihana.. Onneksi pääsee pian siitä eroon :D

      Tosiaanhan se 13-15e mitä se maksaa niin vähän kirpasee. Mutta suosittelen kyllä koittamaan! :)

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  5. Toi eyeliner on ihan paras! Pitäis varmaan piiiiitkästä aikaa hankkia purnukka itselleen. Mielettömän pitkäkestoinen. Joskus tulin baarista kotiin ja oli silmät meikattu tolla. Menin nukkumaan pesemättä meikkejä (hyi mua :D) ja seuraavana päivänä samalla naamalla lähimarkettiin, koska eyeliner ei ollut _yhtään_ levinnyt! Plus paras oli se kun minä krapulaisena ja eilisen naamalla könyän kaupan kassalla niin yksi mummo sanoo, että "anteeksi, mutta olette erittäin hyvännäköinen!" :DDD

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    1. No niinpä! Ja tuo on jo tosi hyvin! On sitten VIELÄKIN kestävämpi kuin luulin! :D Huhhuh kyllä mielellään maksaa tästä jo vähän enemmänkin. Osaatko sanoa että kauanko sulla on riittänyt yksi purkki? Lueskelin jossain vaiheessa että ihmisillä on mennyt kestänyt vuodenkin mutta se nyt varmaan ihan perus tavis käytössä.. :)

      PS. Symppis mummo :DD

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  6. Heroes of Might and Magic! I need to dig out my copy of V, I had a whole series of the older games and played them all the time.

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    1. Ohh cool! It's definitely a great series! :)

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  7. i hope you will like the new apprentice job :-) and since i dont understand finish and so i havce no clue what the other comments say, yes please do a tutorial on the horns :-)

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    1. Thank you, I do! It's a very nice job! ^^
      Ah, few others also say yes to the horn tutorial, so I have decided to do it! :) Coming up later this week!

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